Not having a job and the assurance of a regular paycheck drives you smack into the issue of who you are trusting for your provision — and whether your heart is focused primarily on God’s kingdom or earthly security.
It’s hard to hear Jesus when he says in Matthew 6 that life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. How can there be life if you don’t have food and clothing?
But Jesus isn’t telling me God will leave me without food and clothing. He’s telling me I can’t be consumed with serving God if I am consumed with worry about what my family will eat today. He’s telling me I have to decide who I trust to provide my daily survival needs. “Don’t worry about everyday life,” he says. “These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers. Your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. Seek his kingdom above all else, and live for his justice, and he will give you everything you need.” (Matthew 6:32-33)
Like one of my friends said a few days ago, “Easier said than done.” And I suppose that’s the point. It’s easier to trust money and worry than it is to trust God and focus on his kingdom.
When you wake up at 3 am, wondering how the bills will get paid today, it’s hard to take hold of Philippians 4:6 — “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.” (NLT)
But what can you do, except take God at his word?