Jesus set you free so you could live free!
Before you Gentiles knew God, you were slaves to so-called gods that do not even exist. So now that you know God (or should I say, now that God knows you), why do you want to go back again and become slaves once more to the weak and useless spiritual principles of this world? (Galatians 4:8, 9 NLT)
You are in a hard place. You are tempted to give up. But give up following Jesus? What’s the alternative? He has the words of life! Keep pushing. The one who endures to the end will be saved.